The blank pages of my diary,

That I haven't touched since you left me,

The closed blinds in my home

See no light of day.

Dust gathers on my stereo

Cos I can't bare to hear the radio

The piano sits in a shaded space

With a picture of your face.

I'm scared to face another day

Cos the fear in me just won't go away.

In an instant, you were gone and I'm scared.

Coffee stains on your favorite book

Remind me of you so I can't even look.

The magazines you left on the floor,

You won't need them anymore.

A towel left hangin on the wall,

No sign of wet foosteps in the hall

There's no smell of your sweet cologne.

I'm lying here alone.

I'm scared to face another day

Cos the fear in me just won't go away.

In an instant, you were gone and now I'm scared.

I'm scared to face another day

Cos the fear in me just won't go away.

In an instant, you were gone, now I'm scared.

In an instant you were gone and I'm scared.

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suatu hari kudapatkan diriku ini jatuh terpuruk dan sulit rasanya untuk bangkit, bahkan untuk mengangkat kepala ini. semuanya terlalu sakit dan terlalu rumit. satu pertanyaan yang bisa saya tanyakan "kenapa harus begini Tuhan..?", dan satu pertanyaan itu tak kunjung ku temukan jawabannya. sadar akan keadaanku sekarang yang terlalu sulit dimengerti oleh oranglain, lalu aku memutuskan untuk mengangkat beban ini sendiri. tanpa bantuan siapapun. terlalu kuat mulut ini untuk menahan apa yang saya rasakan sekarang, saya sama sekali tak bisa berkata. hanya bisa merasakan sakitnya.

aku tertambat dalam ruang dan waktu yang membeku, tempat segala kenangan dikristalkan

"sometimes i feel like an idiot when i realize that i loving you, but i'd like to be"